Tough love :)

Just finished my shopping on Asos, the sale is really too crazy. I didn't buy a lot, but sis and I managed to buy 2 dresses and a bag for $120!! and most importantly, the dress that I coveted since like forever is on sale again. This time around, there is no hesitation at all. *beams*

This sunday saw me meeting with the clique for dim sum over at Jade @ Fullerton.
It was really nice, I love it. I absolutely do, 11 years of friendship and counting.
and no matter how many times I will say it again and again that everytime is a good time.
no awkwardness, just loads of honest , bitchy conversations.

Chilled over at TCC, and again I failed to choose a nice tea! There is just no affinity between TCC and me.

Right now baby is sleeping, and my eyes is getting droopy. It must be the medication kicking in.
I miss him and my thoughts went back to last night,
when I was so uncertain about grandma's condition,
and I held his hands on the sofa,
at 2am, and the tears just can't stop falling.

but when he cup my face in his hands,
there is just this calmness.

is this love that I didn't learn about.
is this what they say is a relationship that will see us walking till our hair turn white.
i am sounding so corny,
but I am just so thankful for everything.

I need no luxury,
if this is the sort of calmness i get in troubled times.
he will carry me through all troubled waters.

and if you ask me if there is god in this world,
i tell u confidently YES.

I prayed last night,
in the silence of the house.
while the parents are away at the hospital.
In the wee hours of the  night,
i ask god for forgiveness.

to forgive me for being for-ever busy.
for not honoring my duties as much as I should,
for being bitchy at times
but for being kind at others.

I just pray that no pain will befall on the ones that I love.

I rather take in all the pain.

And today, grandma is way better. :)

So,
god is real.
as real as your heart is sincere.

She just needs you to reflect.
because reflection humbles  man.
You'll realize you're nothing but her creation.

before god,
i am nothing, just a humble man.
before an equal on the street,
i am as common as the girl next door.
I am only proud,
because for all the standards i gave others,
I maintain it for myself.

[ tough love.:) ]