blocked.

ever had a writer's block?
I have.
for days now, if you must know:
I have been FEELING a lot.
a lot of pent up emotions,
defused only momentarily by the presence of the friends and b.

in e day I Kept myself busy helping out ,
signing delivery form,
keeping the cat at bay,
checking out the wreaths.. etc
but when night falls on u, you can't just rein in e emotions now that memories come flooding in.

afterall,
she is a figure in the 25 years of my life.
she is not perfect,
and we do not all possess good experiences,
but she's a family,
a loved one ,
and now the house seemed too quiet.


sadness overwhelm me as I try placing myself in her shoes,
and I would trade that half page newspapers obituary anytime for a huge family gathering.
but still, right now she's heading now to somewhere better right?...

it's raining now,
I hope it'll stop in e afternoon.
or maybe ,
it'll rain away e tears.

on a lighter note,
b n my families met for the first time.
under such an unusual circumstance, I agree.
but they met nevertheless,
and that's special to me.
especially since, I've always wanted her to see me get married.
she'll be so proud of me.
as always.:)