messed

yeah it's autumn,

and tonight we celebrated the mid autumn festival over at my place after we both had dinner with our individual family.

this year, 

babe and I decided to revisit our childhood,

bought lanterns and candles.. 

randomly burning match sticks, 

and forming words : 

(his creation.some happiness can't be bought )

we tried to make the words thinggie work? but failed, only to realize that it's because the surrounding is too bright 

he say he's e Statue of Liberty or sth along the line of him discovering light.

it was just a simply 3 hours tgt,

before I chased him home.

thing is, what's e point of my post ?

my thoughts are all over e place again. I guess it's a mixture of feelings. so here goes my verbal diarrhea. 

1. I miss grandma. I can't rmb how I spent mid autumn last year . I guess, it wasn't memorable because I probably didn do any activity with her. 

It's really a huge regret if you must know. 

I can totally imagine she laughing herself crazy seeing me and b and sis carry the red Lattern,  walkin around playing candles and sparkles  just like when we were young. 

I guess, a part of me wanted to rmb her. and that's why I insisted on spending the night at hme.

and I suppose mainly too, that i know my dad miss her dearly, and that my nonsense will just distract him from his pain. 

2. I'm exhausted much. I want to whine that despite loving my job dearly,

I still treasure my weekends and holidays which I did not and will not get to enjoy because I will or rather HAVE to finish an assignment for my RO before Monday. 

and so while everyone is relaxing tmr,

I have to mug and prepare for the ob. 

a total damper to the MOE o live run that babe and I are gg this year. 

 

I'm not even ready to be honest. 

and right now? I can totally do with the sleep. 

3.  I just want to say that the greatest reward for working is e ability to return home and spend quality time with your loved ones. 

happiness is also when you receive a call from your pal Australia wishing you H

happy mid autumn festival. 

I don know. . 

I just feel that r/s are so fragile,

minor events can forever change your perception n treatment of another so differently and yet it remained so subtle  you didn even manage to detect it.