In a few moments I'll be starting work. Right now, I am, for the weirdest reason missing honey like really sorely. I think it's the hormones working, I can't stand being alone in this room working hard on my assignment now! All I want is a walk in the park and not having to think about work.
I can't help but feel inadequate at work sometimes, I worry tons and then I procrastinate ( I think) and then I get stress. Sometimes I run away from problems, sometimes I over worry.
It is a little pressurizing, when half the class is your current boyfriend's friends and the other is your ex's schoolmates. This is what happens when the class is essentially a merger of 2 Uni.
A part of me feel judged sometimes, an unnecessary form of pressure that I give myself. Still sometimes I can't help but feel like i need to get over the stigma of being an airhead, and show that hey i'm a tough cookie, you just don't see me at it yet.
The personal class has been awesome actually, my classmates are nice and smart, sometimes way too nice to me. A part that caused tension between b and me. I wish things between a guy and girl can remain simple, why do some people not get it?
As I've said before I run with the alpha romeos.
I guess, when we get rifled, our boys don't get a good time with us.
I was looking again at the board hanging above my bed just now,
and I can't help but let out a laugh.
he wrote something like
" flip more to see more adventures." that's a lot of effort for him, this whole board.
and each time I look at it, I appreciate it a little more.
I look back to our first date
and I wonder if he knew what he was getting into.
maybe the girlfriends and I are good at playing the game of deception,
but at least we know we know at least now we've found the following :
 |
| hey sister, your fiance is definitely this =P |
[ Boyfriend,
thanks for putting up with my alpha behavior.
but you know, being with me is as tame as being in a lancer,
no? ]
Just to share :
My favorite song of the moment :
loves,
jacq
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