overworked

I just got home from an evening with b.
and I feel I dropped from heaven back to earth, or even deeper.

when I look at my schedule and how every step I make forward,
seems insufficient to narrow the gap created,
and whatever that come forth is only setting me back.

I can't help but feel like i can't breathe.

it's never fair that I have to be the one that's loaded the most..
has e most tricky situations,
and well just get the worse shit.

sometimes I really feel like laughing out loud,
why do god never let me in on an easy situation.
or maybe, my life is meant to be this way,
always challenged,
just not always easy.
maybe because she know I'll get complacent if I get a cushy job.

maybe I need to learn to see the silver lining in all the things I do.
no matter how tough it gets.

remember,
mentor can pull through ,
so can I.
that's if I want to reach his level.

a long the way , we need to sacrifice.
including time with the people who matters most to you.

I'm getting easily irate these days,
because I feel life is better off without
ppl trying to tell me how to run it,
and how they wish to be part of it.

some days,
I wish I have some peace ,
alone.

just me, and my work