the city life :)

I know I haven been talking much about this offer,
but yes, the R family has once again extended their hands out, this time with a tea session down at the institution.

I am so psyched , honored and humbled about the offer,
what's more this time, from their head.

I have been thinking hard, and it'll be dishonest to say that I have not been wanting to give it try.
a challenge that perhaps I should fight, but never felt capable enough.

live your dreams, they say.
but it wasn't my dream of joining the elite.
it's not what I set out to do,
it doesn't matter where you come from,
as long as you turn good.

fair enough?
sadly no.
being part of the elite,
or we call me the table from Cambridge,
or Harvard circle,
opens door not easily entered.
it's a sad truth, I've learned.

when I was young,
my dad never wanted me to enter the R family even though my mom and aunties are old girls.

his belief stuck.
and while I may not be the Creme de la Creme,
I bagged my As and turned out decently.
I'm just average, normal.
always moving along in equal length steps,
and not through leaps and drips.

keeping myself in the safety zone has always been my priority.
I never want to hurt anyone, in my reckless pursuit of perfection.
or worse still, hurt myself when I fall short of my personal expectation.

maybe it's time to take up some challenges,
and stand by my belief.

many says it's crazy not to join this coveted organization,
I say , it's crazier not to keep my feet on the ground.

if I can't walk, why fly?

i don't know about you,
but i went through a crazy start,
and i've learnt the hard way that career satisfaction can't be measured in terms of dollar and cents,
it comes from a 3rd party appreciation
of my efforts.
and from myself,
i ought to feel proud of my own efforts.

'do as you planned'
the lot read.
I know who needs me more and
tmr, I'll give an answer.
one party will have to be disappointed
and I'll just leave it in her hands.

forget the prestige and the recognition,
finance and enforcement was prestige,
but it brought me no happiness.
I don't think I need to fall down twice to know why I hurt.

on a side note,
tomorrow babe and I will visit an executive condominium launched at tampiness.
The City Life .
maybe this is one challenge we can take the plunge for.
what Do you think?