My turn at happiness.

I am just wondering how do one become successful in their life's pursuits without compromising on one's happiness? Like do you mope around when things don't go your way, do you not feel like giving up?

That's me now.
I really feel like throwing in the towel and say : YOU CAN JUST TAKE EVERYTHING.
I am not going to continue with your mind games.
but that's not because I feel defeated,
it's because I feel it as a form of vengeance.

I really want an avenue to show my displeasure.
I want to stop feeling inadequate and having to deal with people who will mercilessly step on another's shoulder to climb up the corporate rungs.
It is not that you don't have what it takes.
You have. 
But why is it that there remains a need for you to stoop so low and wrestle for even more power.
[ No wonder they say : MAN are hungry for power. not woman. ]

I never wanted to be part of this fight.
I never wanted the power, the control and that position.
The difference between me and you is that I don't covet for the power.
People bestowed it on me.
I work hard to avoid disappointments
You work hard to gain recognition
Can you see the difference between us?

I take heart knowing that I will be the BETTER MAN.
I'm going to MAN it up, because you made me to do so.
When the whole world expects me to be pissed and to be upset,
I will walk on with a smile on my face.

I will fight strong and turn out stronger.
There exists too many occasions ever since I got to know YOU and YOU
that left me feeling a void in my accomplishments.
But for many times too, I triumph valiantly.

Can't you just recognize that I am not fighting?
I am not pretending to be the person that I am not.
I am not doing extra stuff, staying extra late to be recognized.
I am not making your life difficult
I am just doing what is required of me
I am being responsible.
I wanted to work as a team.
In a team, we work towards achieving common goals.
In a group, we work towards achieving individual aims.
I don't think you get that.

There's many things that we can learn from each other,
but you choose to think that you know best.
It's a pity.
A pity that  as man you are defensive against a woman that places loyalty above all virtues.

I've lost respect of you.
I should just stop trying to think the best of you.

"Another post. Another verbal diarrhea. It's weekend, I'm heading out to have my fun. :) "